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@@ -12,10 +12,12 @@ It began one evening when I was about 6 years old. | |||
12 | I was watching "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him. | 12 | I was watching "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him. |
13 | The idea of possessing a nonhuman body fascinated me immediately, especially that of a bird. | 13 | The idea of possessing a nonhuman body fascinated me immediately, especially that of a bird. |
14 | What would it feel like to have such a completely different body, to have a beak and wings and to be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky? | 14 | What would it feel like to have such a completely different body, to have a beak and wings and to be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky? |
15 | As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my human body and longed for another one; something that would never leave me alone again. | 15 | As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my human body and longed for another one. |
16 | Driven by this desire, imagining I was a bird became a frequent activity. | ||
16 | 17 | ||
17 | Driven by this desire, I started to fantasize about being a bird frequently. | 18 | 23 years later, foxes have taken the place of birds after a detour with dragons and wolves. |
18 | For me it was -- and still is -- a strictly personal and mental matter, so I made sure to have time for myself and focused on making the body feel realistic to let me forget about reality. | 19 | During this time, I started to question my experience and was looking for answers. |
20 | I theorized I had the soul of a dragon, stumbled across the furry fandom, and learned of the existence of otherkins and therians. | ||
21 | It was a long time of uncertainty and it hasn't been that long since I settled with my identity. | ||
19 | 22 | ||
20 | The only thing that has changed over time was the creature I became in my fantasy. | ||
21 | 23 | ||