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@@ -12,10 +12,12 @@ It began one evening when I was about 6 years old.
12I was watching "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him. 12I was watching "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him.
13The idea of possessing a nonhuman body fascinated me immediately, especially that of a bird. 13The idea of possessing a nonhuman body fascinated me immediately, especially that of a bird.
14What would it feel like to have such a completely different body, to have a beak and wings and to be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky? 14What would it feel like to have such a completely different body, to have a beak and wings and to be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky?
15As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my human body and longed for another one; something that would never leave me alone again. 15As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my human body and longed for another one.
16Driven by this desire, imagining I was a bird became a frequent activity.
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17Driven by this desire, I started to fantasize about being a bird frequently. 1823 years later, foxes have taken the place of birds after a detour with dragons and wolves.
18For me it was -- and still is -- a strictly personal and mental matter, so I made sure to have time for myself and focused on making the body feel realistic to let me forget about reality. 19During this time, I started to question my experience and was looking for answers.
20I theorized I had the soul of a dragon, stumbled across the furry fandom, and learned of the existence of otherkins and therians.
21It was a long time of uncertainty and it hasn't been that long since I settled with my identity.
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20The only thing that has changed over time was the creature I became in my fantasy.
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