From f865d57437e392cc50837a46b50474d026d6d630 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Volpeon Date: Sat, 27 Nov 2021 18:52:45 +0100 Subject: Update --- content/9thPK7O3xn/posts/i-am-not-a-fox.md | 9 +++++---- 1 file changed, 5 insertions(+), 4 deletions(-) diff --git a/content/9thPK7O3xn/posts/i-am-not-a-fox.md b/content/9thPK7O3xn/posts/i-am-not-a-fox.md index bf99617..53d3a9a 100644 --- a/content/9thPK7O3xn/posts/i-am-not-a-fox.md +++ b/content/9thPK7O3xn/posts/i-am-not-a-fox.md @@ -12,9 +12,10 @@ It began one evening when I was about 6 years old. I was watching "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him. The idea of possessing a nonhuman body fascinated me immediately, especially that of a bird. What would it feel like to have such a completely different body, to have a beak and wings and to be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky? -As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my human body and longed for the right one; something that would never leave me alone again. +As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my human body and longed for another one; something that would never leave me alone again. + Driven by this desire, I started to fantasize about being a bird frequently. -It was like a spiritual activity, something I fully concentrated on when I had time for myself so I could make this fantasy as realistic as possible. +For me it was -- and still is -- a strictly personal and mental matter, so I made sure to have time for myself and focused on making the body feel realistic to let me forget about reality. + +The only thing that has changed over time was the creature I became in my fantasy. -For many years I frequently fantasized about being a bird, then a dragon, very briefly a wolf, and finally a fox. -By that time I was 18 years old and -- cgit v1.2.3-70-g09d2