From 975093268f8b09c5beeb26457539c83212f57c78 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Volpeon Date: Sun, 28 Nov 2021 21:30:22 +0100 Subject: Update --- content/9thPK7O3xn/posts/i-am-not-a-fox.md | 21 ++++++++++----------- 1 file changed, 10 insertions(+), 11 deletions(-) (limited to 'content/9thPK7O3xn') diff --git a/content/9thPK7O3xn/posts/i-am-not-a-fox.md b/content/9thPK7O3xn/posts/i-am-not-a-fox.md index c26084c..2965302 100644 --- a/content/9thPK7O3xn/posts/i-am-not-a-fox.md +++ b/content/9thPK7O3xn/posts/i-am-not-a-fox.md @@ -6,23 +6,22 @@ unlisted: true I am not a fox. It would be ridiculous to claim otherwise since a fox wouldn't be able to type on a keyboard, not to mention come up with this text in the first place. A fox probably couldn't have a job as a software developer, too. -But despite reality leaving no room for doubt, my existence as a human never felt right to me. +But despite reality leaving no room for doubt, my existence as a human doesn't feel right to me. It began one evening when I was about 6 years old. I was watching "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him. The idea of possessing a nonhuman body fascinated me immediately, especially that of a bird. What would it feel like to experience and interact with the world, to be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky? As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my humanity and longed for the life I was supposed to have. -Driven by this strange desire, imagining I was a bird became a frequent activity. +I didn't lose sight of the fact that I was a human, but I started to imagine what being a bird would be like frequently. -When I was 13 years old, dragons took the place of birds after I got introduced to fantasy novels; 4 years later it was wolves, and shortly after foxes. -Somewhere along the way, I had realized that my experience was far from normal and I finally started to look for answers. -What was this persistent feeling in the back of my mind that made me think I was supposed to be an animal? +And that's how things were for 7 years, until I got introduced to fantasy novels. +I became obsessed with dragons and they quickly took over the role of birds for me. +4 years later it was wolves, and shortly after foxes. +During this time, I had slowly realized that my experience was anything but usual and started looking for answers. +Why did I think I was supposed to be an animal? Were there other people like me? -I did a lot of introspection, theorized I had the soul of a dragon, stumbled across the [furry fandom], and learned about the existence of [otherkins] and [therians]. +I did a lot of research on the internet, stumbled across the furry fandom, and found therians. - - -[furry fandom]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Furry_fandom -[otherkins]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Otherkin -[therians]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Therianthropy +Therians are individuals who believe they are an animal on some level, either spiritually -- such as past lives or souls -- or psychologically. +It sounds like the perfect answer to my question, but after my initial research into therians I -- cgit v1.2.3-70-g09d2