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title:    I Am Not a Fox
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As a child, I frequently imagined I was a bird.
I had watched Disney's "The Sword in the Stone", an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him.
The idea of being an animal, but especially a bird, resonated with me.
How would it feel to experience and interact with the world through such a completely different body?
To feel my feathers bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky?
To be perceived by other creatures not as a human but as a bird?
As I grew up, I explored this concept further and further and my fantasies became increasingly detailed and immersive.

When I was 13 years old, dragons took over the role of birds after I got introduced to fantasy novels.



By then, I had 
I had realized by then that my experience was far from normal and I finally decided to do research on the internet, where I stumbled across the furry fandom and found therians.

Therians are individuals who believe they are an animal on some level, either spiritually -- such as past lives or souls -- or psychologically.
It sounds like the perfect answer to my question, but after looking into them it didn't resonate with me.
 

I am not a fox.
It would be ridiculous to claim otherwise.
A fox wouldn't be able to type on a keyboard, not to mention come up with this text in the first place.
A fox couldn't have a job as a software developer.
A fox wouldn't look in the mirror and see a human.