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6I am not a fox. 6I am not a fox.
7It would be ridiculous to claim otherwise since a fox wouldn't be able to type on a keyboard, not to mention come up with this text in the first place. 7It would be ridiculous to claim otherwise since a fox wouldn't be able to type on a keyboard, not to mention come up with this text in the first place.
8A fox probably couldn't have a job as a software developer, too. 8A fox probably couldn't have a job as a software developer, too.
9But despite reality being quite obvious, my existence as a human being doesn't feel right to me. 9But despite reality leaving no room for doubt, my existence as a human never felt right to me.
10It never has.
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12I was 6 years old when I first became aware of this feeling. 11I was 6 years old when I first became aware that something was wrong.
13I'm sure many of you have seen the movie "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, wherein the protagonist Arthur is transformed into various animals to learn different life lessons. 12I'm sure many of you have seen "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, wherein the protagonist Arthur is transformed into various animals to learn different life lessons.
14I was watching this movie one evening and was fascinated by the idea of possessing a nonhuman body, especially that of a bird. 13I was watching this movie one evening and was fascinated by the idea of possessing a nonhuman body, especially that of a bird.
15What would it be like to experience the world as one? 14What would it be like to experience the world as one?
16To be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the air? 15To be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky?
17I hadn't noticed the persistent nagging at the back of my mind before, but as I imagined myself in this situation I felt relieved when it fell silent for the first time in my life. 16I hadn't noticed the persistent nagging at the back of my mind before, but as I imagined myself in this situation it fell silent for the first time in my life.
18I didn't question what was happening -- I was only 6 years old after all. 17I didn't question what was happening -- I was only 6 years old after all.
19But I had become aware of this unpleasant feeling and I learned how to make it go away, so it became of mine to turn into a bird in my fantasies. 18But I had become aware of this unpleasant feeling and I knew how to make it go away, so it became a habit of mine to be a bird in my fantasies.
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