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12 | I was watching "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him. | 12 | I was watching "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him. |
13 | The idea of possessing a nonhuman body fascinated me immediately, especially that of a bird. | 13 | The idea of possessing a nonhuman body fascinated me immediately, especially that of a bird. |
14 | What would it feel like to have such a completely different body, to have a beak and wings and to be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky? | 14 | What would it feel like to have such a completely different body, to have a beak and wings and to be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky? |
15 | As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my human body and longed for the right one; something that would never leave me alone again. | 15 | As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my human body and longed for another one; something that would never leave me alone again. |
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16 | Driven by this desire, I started to fantasize about being a bird frequently. | 17 | Driven by this desire, I started to fantasize about being a bird frequently. |
17 | It was like a spiritual activity, something I fully concentrated on when I had time for myself so I could make this fantasy as realistic as possible. | 18 | For me it was -- and still is -- a strictly personal and mental matter, so I made sure to have time for myself and focused on making the body feel realistic to let me forget about reality. |
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20 | The only thing that has changed over time was the creature I became in my fantasy. | ||
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19 | For many years I frequently fantasized about being a bird, then a dragon, very briefly a wolf, and finally a fox. | ||
20 | By that time I was 18 years old and | ||