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title: I Am Not a Fox
unlisted: true
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I am not a fox.
It would be ridiculous to claim otherwise since a fox wouldn't be able to type on a keyboard, not to mention come up with this text in the first place.
A fox probably couldn't have a job as a software developer, too.
But despite reality leaving no room for doubt, my existence as a human never felt right to me.
It began one evening when I was about 6 years old.
I was watching "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him.
The idea of possessing a nonhuman body fascinated me immediately, especially that of a bird.
What would it feel like to experience and interact with the world, to be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky?
As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my humanity and longed for the life I was supposed to have.
Driven by this strange desire, imagining I was a bird became a frequent activity.
When I was 13 years old, dragons took the place of birds after I got introduced to fantasy novels; 4 years later it was wolves, and shortly after foxes.
Somewhere along the way, I had realized that my experience was far from normal and I finally started to look for answers.
What was this persistent feeling in the back of my mind that made me think I was supposed to be an animal?
Were there other people like me?
I did a lot of introspection, theorized I had the soul of a dragon, stumbled across the [furry fandom], and learned about the existence of [otherkins] and [therians].
[furry fandom]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Furry_fandom
[otherkins]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Otherkin
[therians]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Therianthropy
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