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6 | I am not a fox. | 6 | I am not a fox. |
7 | It would be ridiculous to claim otherwise since a fox wouldn't be able to type on a keyboard, not to mention come up with this text in the first place. | 7 | It would be ridiculous to claim otherwise since a fox wouldn't be able to type on a keyboard, not to mention come up with this text in the first place. |
8 | A fox probably couldn't have a job as a software developer, too. | 8 | A fox probably couldn't have a job as a software developer, too. |
9 | But despite reality leaving no room for doubt, my existence as a human never felt right to me. | 9 | But despite reality leaving no room for doubt, my existence as a human doesn't feel right to me. |
10 | 10 | ||
11 | It began one evening when I was about 6 years old. | 11 | It began one evening when I was about 6 years old. |
12 | I was watching "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him. | 12 | I was watching "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, an animated film about a boy called Arthur who is transformed into various animals by Merlin the wizard in order to educate him. |
13 | The idea of possessing a nonhuman body fascinated me immediately, especially that of a bird. | 13 | The idea of possessing a nonhuman body fascinated me immediately, especially that of a bird. |
14 | What would it feel like to experience and interact with the world, to be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky? | 14 | What would it feel like to experience and interact with the world, to be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the sky? |
15 | As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my humanity and longed for the life I was supposed to have. | 15 | As I imagined myself in this situation, something inside of my mind awakened; something that rejected my humanity and longed for the life I was supposed to have. |
16 | Driven by this strange desire, imagining I was a bird became a frequent activity. | 16 | I didn't lose sight of the fact that I was a human, but I started to imagine what being a bird would be like frequently. |
17 | 17 | ||
18 | When I was 13 years old, dragons took the place of birds after I got introduced to fantasy novels; 4 years later it was wolves, and shortly after foxes. | 18 | And that's how things were for 7 years, until I got introduced to fantasy novels. |
19 | Somewhere along the way, I had realized that my experience was far from normal and I finally started to look for answers. | 19 | I became obsessed with dragons and they quickly took over the role of birds for me. |
20 | What was this persistent feeling in the back of my mind that made me think I was supposed to be an animal? | 20 | 4 years later it was wolves, and shortly after foxes. |
21 | During this time, I had slowly realized that my experience was anything but usual and started looking for answers. | ||
22 | Why did I think I was supposed to be an animal? | ||
21 | Were there other people like me? | 23 | Were there other people like me? |
22 | I did a lot of introspection, theorized I had the soul of a dragon, stumbled across the [furry fandom], and learned about the existence of [otherkins] and [therians]. | 24 | I did a lot of research on the internet, stumbled across the furry fandom, and found therians. |
23 | 25 | ||
24 | 26 | Therians are individuals who believe they are an animal on some level, either spiritually -- such as past lives or souls -- or psychologically. | |
25 | 27 | It sounds like the perfect answer to my question, but after my initial research into therians I | |
26 | [furry fandom]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Furry_fandom | ||
27 | [otherkins]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Otherkin | ||
28 | [therians]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Therianthropy | ||