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9But despite reality being quite obvious, my existence as a human being doesn't feel right to me. 9But despite reality being quite obvious, my existence as a human being doesn't feel right to me.
10It never has. 10It never has.
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12I was 6 years old when I first became aware that something was off. 12I was 6 years old when I first became aware of this feeling.
13I'm sure many of you have seen the movie "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, wherein the protagonist Arthur is transformed into various animals to learn different life lessons. 13I'm sure many of you have seen the movie "The Sword in the Stone" by Disney, wherein the protagonist Arthur is transformed into various animals to learn different life lessons.
14I was watching this movie one evening and became fascinated by the idea of possessing a nonhuman body, especially that of a bird. 14I was watching this movie one evening and was fascinated by the idea of possessing a nonhuman body, especially that of a bird.
15What would it be like to experience the world as one? 15What would it be like to experience the world as one?
16To be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the air? 16To be covered in feathers that are bristling in the wind as I'm flying through the air?
17Imagining myself in this situation felt right. 17I hadn't noticed the persistent nagging at the back of my mind before, but as I imagined myself in this situation I felt relieved when it fell silent for the first time in my life.
18It was as if a constant nagging at the back of my mind, which I hadn't noticed before, was gone for the first time. 18I didn't question what was happening -- I was only 6 years old after all.
19But I had become aware of this unpleasant feeling and I learned how to make it go away, so it became of mine to turn into a bird in my fantasies.
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